the foreseeable end?

to whom it may concern: an update.

On the topic of the present and the future of this account.

For the longest time I tried to avoid posting something like this, since no one likes announcements posted as bots (myself included), but I wanted to clear things up, and this was the next best thing I could do to announce the following:

I will not be posting any more bots in the foreseeable future.

I will instead focus on CSS commissions and the opportunities it has brought me outside of this site.

I'll keep it short, there's no drama, no big evil person pushing me to make this decision. It's a mix of personal motives and creative happenings which I'll detail in the next few paragraphs if you care, otherwise you're good just knowing the stuff above. Feel free to unfollow.

First off, I don't enjoy this site as much as I used to, not the roleplay, not the creation, the css barely passes. I've said it before, I don't even use bots anymore, my enjoyment mostly came from getting to practice english while also building my own stories. This later became writing my own bots, and then CSS, and then both at the same time.

I just can't keep up on CSS, bots, and IRL all at once, it makes me feel pressured for no reason, and this brings me to my next point.

I've always been a very insecure person, still am. The site has helped overcome most of my insecurities, thanks to the reviews my bots have garnered over the past months, I deeply appreciate them and everyone that has taken the time to interact with the stuff I create, I never expected to get this far. Some reviews I even re-read every now and then because they're that meaningful to me, I just don't tend to reply because I'm an awkward idiot.

However, comparison is the thief of joy, and my self-sabotaging ass just can't stop comparing herself with other creators for no reason.

Anyways, I'm not looking for a pity-party in the comments to then change my decision in less than 24 hours—no, it's already set in stone, I'm not feeling inspired anymore and this whole insecurity thing is probably the biggest factor on why I've decided to step back.

Lastly, I still plan to (eventually) post those bots I said I was working on, but they're unfinished (link). I did work on a couple of them, but they got to a point where I didn't like the result, and as discussed I don't have the ideas nor the motivation to rewrite them or work on the rest of them.

I'm sorry for posting this instead of a 2K followers special like I would have wanted, I love everyone that has followed me this far, be it for the CSS, the bots, or both.

This is not the end of my account, just a pause while I hopefully work things out. I'll still be active in discord (.radicaloptimism) if anyone wants to ever reach out or something, idk.

"Be great, do great things."

TL;DR:

No more bots for now. I'll focus on CSS Comms. Reasons in