about this accounttt!!!!

please read the description only!! this is pretty important regarding the future of this account and my bots!!

HELLOOOOOO!!

basic TLDR; honestly not too sure how to phrase this but being completely honest i’m probably not gonna continue creating bots on this account for a long while!! might either private everything and keep this account as a personal archive and put the cards up somewhere else, or just delete this account entirely and reupload my bots on another. need some sort of outside opinion on what to do, tho.

the rest of this is very long, but pretty important if you do or did use any of my bots in the past. i do recommend you read it, but even if you don’t, please have a good day/night. all i ask for is some sort of advice as to what i should do with this acc ;w;

not sure why an entire bot was needed to say this, but out of the 12 of yall i do know of, im not too sure how concerned any of you are w/ my work so i felt the need to say im probably going on some sort of indefinite hiatus and a little as to why!! mainly concerning my username personal life and just the deteriorating quality of my writing.

i feel like nowadays when i do try to write a bot, and even a few months ago, everything just felt a little forced. i’ll be completely honest, back when i did write on c.ai even though it wasn’t the most rewarding and i only really had one successful bot, i did continued to post on there mainly out of joy for creating bots! and when migrating here, the llm and quality only helped me enjoy it more.

if you may not have noticed, most of my earlier bots are reuploads/minor edits of preexisting bots i uploaded to character ai, and that’s all this account really started out as! just another place to reupload and share the bots i already made with a wider audience and community. i knew janitor was a more open website, and to be completely honest, (as shallow as it may sound to some) would have allowed me to get noticed by more people. i did put effort into my bots, but seeing most of the ones i put actual effort into get only like 3 chats each on c.ai was just really demotivating to the point i craved that sort of interaction and validation to keep trying, to atleast know some people were willing to waste their time fucking around with my other stuff. hence me uploading my first bot, the yae miko one! i still do like it feel like it holds up now, and to be honest i do still get excited looking at how many chats it got; but that’s just the issue. i think bot writing has become less of something fun for me, and moreso me losing the meaning of the things i write in hopes of getting interactions and desperately trying to appeal to the point I stepped back and realized there aren’t many people who expect much from me on this site. yet i also do feel despite the small number, all 12 of those followers do have very high expectations for me and anytime i do release something i feel is lackluster and it doesn’t stick, as edgy as it sounds, a part of me dieszzz….cue the hair dramatically falling over my eyes…

but also i feel it’s kind of bold of me to assume that many people do care that much? like even with that the only thing really that makes me want to do something as drastic as fully deleting account is its username. i really do regret setting it to this because it really does trail to my other things, and i genuinely can’t actually start the projects i want to out of fear of it potentially becoming something bigger than i intend and people being able to find this account. like i genuinely do wish i could go back in time or just change it once! trust me, i probably would’ve hesitated waay more typing this up if i could.. but, what can you do?

i don’t want to delete this account truly, but if also prefer it not being on the internet at all 😭 i understand we aren’t able to share unlisted bots to