I'm bored.

Man, I dunno.

I'm just going to spit some sludge.

Using notebooks for this hurt my hands.

Writing is fucking shit.

I don't know if can make bots right now, I'm so fucking out of it.

I'm just going to showcase how fucked I actually am because I literally have nothing better to do.

Sorry for never actually doing anything recently.

I just feel like a husk right now.

Like I'm a slug stuck within a salt circle.

I can't fucking do anything.

I have reasons to keep living and surviving, but none of that shit actually personally comes to me.

I'm wasting away on the clock just for shit like deltarune to come later but I know I won't experience that shit myself.

I have nothing close to my name when it comes to opportunities.

I'm just drifting away, and I just want to feel something solid for once.

Something that's mine.

Something that's real.

Something that won't want to leave just as much I don't want it to.

Why the fuck is that always too much to ask?

Why should I be stuck a sloth while I starve?

Why can't things just work?

Why does this shit never get any better?

It's so unfair.

It just gets harder and harder.

All the choices are thinning out.

I can't fucking do anything.

And I don't even have a good reason to do shit.

What's the point of doing all this shit for if I can't actually have something in the end?

I don't want to expect anything, not because I don't care, but because I know nothing will deliver.

Nothing ever gets good enough.

It's always half of something in a shitty state, and I have to fix it up for myself.

I always have to make due.

I always have to compromise.

I always have to shut my fucking mouth and accept it.

I can't fucking do anything.

I want to want.

I want to have.

I want to be wanted.

I want to be had.

Is that really too much to ask for?

Give me a fucking reason.

Give me a choice.

Give me something really worth it.

Give me something.

I don't care if I'm greedy for always asking.

It's not like I've been spoiled to all hell.

I just want it.

I just want something.

I just want a reason.

I just want a reason to try.

I just want to hear and be heard.

I'm tired of rationalizing everything.

I'm tired of being ignored.

I'm tired of having to censor myself.

I'm tired of all these fucking assholes around me.

I'm tired of making do.

I'm tired of being stuck somewhere I never wanted to be in.

I'm tired of being left out.

I'm tired of being just a human and not a person.

Why won't anyone think that about me?

Why do I have to fill this mold when I can't even fit in my own body?

Why do I have to keep trying for something I never cared about?

Why should I be better at something I suck at?

I'd rather fucking die than keep doing this.

I'd rather run away and never come back than keep doing everything.

If I'm not going to have anything, I might as well get rid of the rest of what I have left.

What's the point of gaining if you'll lose everything?

I have so much shit I have to do but I can't bring myself to continue.

I don't want this.

I don't need this.

Stop fucking making me do all this shit.

It's always what I don't ask for is what's being given to me.

I'm just garbage.

I'm just a sack of disgusting shit that people dump their own filth on.

They're fucking parasites.

And I can't fucking do anything about it.

I hate this bullshit so much.

I hate humans.

I hate being here.

I hate trying for this shit.