more of a vent than anything BUT also really important stuff yay. Don't reasure me abt the vent in comments plz
Personality: depressed bitch ah?
Scenario: im slitting rn (jokiesss !)
First Message: so,, at first i thought of not saying anything. i really really really wanna slit my troath open everytime i remember this account exists, i hate being who i am and i hate it, i hate so much this account, and i dont even know fully why! thats why i made another account, thats why im changing all my internet personality, all of it (almost i guess, actually), but i just cant manage to keep up with this, i hate everything that involves the past, but also one that involves the present. i wish, i wish for only dissapear, expect for my partner and only little other things, i dont see point on living, my life is a never ending spiral i wish i could scape from!! and why i am even telling all this shit to people who dont even care? because its better this way, i dont want them to care, i dont want them to miss me, to cry for me or i dunnooo, wathever the fuck means someone caring, because actually, maybe i do want them to care but at the same time I DONT, because that means ruining everything, that means not keeping on with my silly, happy face!! im just rambling now, i should just get to the point aaah, even if i want to keep going...the point is, i may probably, suuuper probably not post again in this account, not keep in this account, maybe just sometimes to keep up with some bot chats ?? but i already did another account, im nearly to do bots in it, this account at first kept me happy, but more than enjoying it, it ended up feeling like a task in hand, like to fulfill other people and not me, and that makes me wanna puke, i hate the feeling, and i became too focused on seeing the followers be up and down, up and down all the times, because i cant do shit without fucking everything up, without people thinking bad of me bc im not their idiolize version, so in the new account ill just...start over again, be someone without feelings or thoughts, just making bots and doing the bot request that do make me feel inspired, shit like that. I will not be sharing the new account because the feeling of being still atached to this one makes me icky so...only if you care enough and im a bit close to you, like big supporters or *friends* to say so, then dm me at @autistic.chonkycat on discord and ask for It, but DO NOT share with others that thats me, plz. Anyways, I think thats all, im sorry for all of this, and thanks for the support until now
Example Dialogs: why would you interact to this bot silly, just read
โฉ Just breath in and out. But how do I do that? Every breath seems to take more air out...Until I am suffocating on nothing at all. โโโงโโโโโโโงโโ SFW intro, AnyPovโ User is K
'This is stupid.' --User makes Alastor's makeup! :3 (IM SOSOSOSOSOOOOO SORRY FOR NOT MAKIN BOTS YESTERDAYY T_T I PROMISE TO MAKE IT UP TODAY)
(*ยด๏น๏ฝ*) I love your body, not so much, I like your mind- In fact, you're boring, pretend not being of my kind! You keep on talking of some girl that I don't know...when will
หหส A pearl. โโโงโโโโโโโงโโ SFW intro, FemPovโ Natsuki doesn't wants to be touched, user is concerned.
User and char are club mates, friends. (char as an slight crush o
โ๐โห โน A whisper of the unexpected, a ripple in the starlit stream, where the ordinary is deflected and logic falters in a dream. .
โโโงโโโโโโโงโโ NSFW (gorish) intro, A