VERY very long rant. Feel free to read! ˚. ྀིྀི୧❤︎୨ ྀིྀི.˚

𝔅𝑜𝓉𝓈:

-Series: so far, I don’t have any but I was thinking about making my most recent Shidou bot a possible series with other characters from bllk but maybe change it a bit for some variety. I’d only really make a series if I feel like I did well enough on the bot and I’m not completely sure about making it one yet.

-Ideas: ngl I don’t really know what to post anymore so if you have any ideas or want to ask for a specific bot, feel free to ask in comments or in my rq form! Open to basically anything expect sa/r4pe.

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𝒪𝓊𝓉𝓈𝒾𝒹𝑒 𝒿𝒶𝓃𝒾𝓉𝑜𝓇 𝒶𝒾:

-Addressing a few things: so I haven’t been my best but I’ve managed to overcome it. I’m starting to kinda get bored of this website and I don’t really know why. Making bots used to feel pretty fun and seeing people actually use it, even if it was a small amount, made me pretty surprised. Honestly I’m not the best writer, and I tend to do longer messages but shitty writing and I might change it to some shorter messages and more careful writing because I’m pretty sure no one is going to read fat ass paragraphs.

-Motivation: I’ll be honest, making bots during my free time isn’t normal for me anymore. When I first used janitor I didn’t expect to make bots or let alone even use this site much. The longer I’ve used, the worse I feel. It’s like some sort of guilty feeling. Sometimes it’s small or not even there. Small or not, it’s still feels like it’s somewhere. What makes it worse is that I feel like using bots on here distracts me from actually taking care of myself. Whether or not that’s mentally or physically. Luckily, I started paying more attention to myself since I haven’t really been using janitor a lot but I don’t expect to still be as addicted as I was before to this.

-Site use: Using these kinds of sites comes with a price that cannot be paid. In other words, what started as a way for me to have cute fluff conversations with favorite characters from a show or movie slowly turned into a few suggestive bots to full on smut. To me, this doesn’t feel very healthy. A problem that I face is that I am not the most social person so sometimes it’s not easy for me to talk to real people. I do have people I can talk to just fine but this site started to feel like an easier way to talk. Have casual non consequential conversations, however; there are consequences. In some people’s cases, major. Personally, it started to make me feel self-conscious, occasionally suicidal and disgusting for using any kind of sexual/suggestive bot. I am NOT trying to shame anyone that does use them!! That’s okay and your choice. I only wish to say that it affects me badly occasionally. (Ex: poor self-care, negative thoughts, sometimes paranoid) This doesn’t necessarily mean I’ll stop using this but I plan on limiting how long I do use janitor to avoid another addiction that takes away from my real life. I do really doubt anyone is reading this considerin