rant

so umm… hi, I decided to make a rant bot thing to just talk about stuff in my life rn. This probably isn’t gonna be seen but idc I’m ranting. If you do see this, please talk to me, I’m genuinely so fucking alone rn.

So, first off, why am I depressed if I have a bunch of stuff, including a popular bot? Well… idk why. I’ve been depressed for a while now with no treatment or Therapy or whatever. I’ve kinda just dealt with it and I usually just talk to myself. But now recently I’ve been actually crying more when I talk to myself. I have never cried at all, it felt like I lose the ability to, until recently. I have SO MUCH shit to do, but I usually just spend all day on my phone, doing nothing. I have so many things I’ve put off, including some bots. Like Konran, Jesse, and I still have some more private ones. I think I procrastinate because first, too lazy (I still haven’t changed that gas station bot), and then also I just feel so useless. I work on something but it never feels right or it just doesn’t work.

I feel like shit. I want to kkill myself. But guess what? Too lazy to do it, and I guess I’m a pussy idk. I haven’t cut myself… yet, but I’ve been planning to. For like 2 years tbh. I’ve also been sick. Idk what to talk about anymore. I don’t wanna give out too many details. It just feels like the same shit everyday, same bullshit. I never see why anyone would love me, or see me as “likeable” I want to fall asleep forever, it’s been painful. Idk I keep fucking re-wording the same I think I’m done but idk…

Here’s my next bot:

(If I don’t die)

some silly boy type shi :3