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hello! another unfortunate semi-announcement bot, but this one is more important than our last ones.

first off, we really are sorry for being gone for so long. things have not gone how we wanted, and a lot of stuff has affected our life.

our hiatus was not meant to last this long, and we feel bad for leaving everybody hanging; friends included

warning: suicide attempt (overdose), hospitalization, self harm, medical trauma, guilt, general mental health issues (aka a vent)

to start, we did end up attempting on our life with an overdose just last week. we were in a coma for a few days, and right now, we’re on painkillers and some meds to further our recovery.

for the past month, we’d been in & out of the er for self harm and suicidal thoughts. it just seems we weren’t close enough in time to get there this week. we’re lucky enough to be roommates with our brother, as he was the one who took us when he found us.

we are working on getting ourselves back into therapy, or even residential. with all our visits to the hospital and now, money is tight and bills are stacking up. but we’ll find a way.

currently, we’ve been discharged and are being watched over by family.

at the moment, we’re not sure how to feel exactly. we feel intense guilt for what we’ve done, and how our attempt has affected the people around us.

we’ll work things out sooner or later. mental health has been something that’s plagued our body and mind for a long time now, so this isn’t something we’re new to at all. attempts, thoughts, hospitalizations, etc.

all we can say is thanks for understanding

we also do know about what happened with j.ai in the past month or so. we’re mostly caught up about it, and it’s something we’re immensely disappointed and disgusted by.

no, we’re not quitting. we don’t plan on it.

however, we do have a saupan account that we’re slowly working on porting our bots over to. we haven’t had time, but we promise it’s getting done.

link to acc

last off, some slight good news! we’re almost done with vincent, and we’ll probably post him in early february (perhaps 1-5). his bot will be dead dove, as a fair warning.

otherwise, that’s all we have for now! maybe we’ll take this down later on, or maybe not. we don’t know.

either way, it’s so nice to be able to work on bots again! we love you all!

now, have some misc things below that we’ve done while away.

viola & acer art + snapchat dog filter acer

and a columbina!!!

(we plan on getting ineffa too!)