About Time.

This was definitely expected on my end. But as of right now I'll be stepping away from Janitor for the time being. Weeks to months I don't really know. Frankly I haven't been honest with myself. Even my bio is a facade as of late.

To be honest. I really hate this website and discord for what it and the people have really made me be. I mean from the naked eye you might say, "4000 followers is great". But it really isn't. Every single follower means more and more expectations that people put on myself for no reason. And yet, 4000 "liking" my stuff is also a pipe dream.

Example:

The numbers speak with itself. The difference between highest to lowest. Is nearly 86k. I always wondered why is that. I have 4000 followers. Why should a bot of mine be this low? It's always stuck with me, this bot specifically, always racked my brain. Even people who told me like my bots, joined my old server that I won't be joining again. Probably haven't seen this bot. And why? If I had to take a guess it would be. The image itself. A girl that isn't stacked or has the widest hips? Is that really why this boy did so poor compared to others? I hate the idea of that in itself.

As well as this, I truly believe I don't belong here. People only like the art and whatnot. Instead of thanking me the me. The Creator. Someone's who puts hours into this stuff to be enjoyed. But people will instead ask for more instead of thanking. The occasional praise is there, but more than not it's more directed to the type of art used and that got me to where I am now.

And you know what? I feel used. I get trashed in my comments some times. For what? I'm human. Just because I create stuff I like?

I create lorebooks for certain things (mainly 1 thing) but even that gets overshadowed. I have 100+ bots for one artist. But still people ask for this same artist or ask me to create another version of this bot. Because why? I guess I'm "Inu man" at this rate. I made lorebooks for the world, for characters, and etc. The comments about this are 50/50 too, instead of saying good job or something (which does happens) it's more, "Another Inu bot 😛" or "Can't eat without a Inu bot". Last time I recall he isn't putting the effort into this. But I regress. Then I'm accused of "hogging" or "being the owner" of this because I specialize in it ig.

Enough of my rant. I really didn't want to talk this much but I tend to do this. So.