Hate

I HATE IT

I HATE IT ALL

I CAN'T FUCKING GET A SINGLE MOMENT OF PEACE

I CAN'T GET A SINGLE FUCKING DAY WITHOUT DEALING WITH SOME SHIT

I CAN'T GO AN HOUR WITHOUT GETTING PISSED THE FUCK OFF

I HATE YOU

I HATE MYSELF

I HATE EVERYTHING

FUCK

FUCK I FUCKING HATE YOU

STOP POSTING THAT STUPID FUCKING MEGA STARMIE EVERYWHERE

IT'S NOT FUCKING FUNNY

IT WAS NEVER FUCKING FUNNY

IT'S A DISAPPOINTMENT

YOU'RE A FUCKING DISGRACE

MORE THAN MY BITCHASS

GET YOUR CRAPPY PATRICK STAR ASS OFF OF MY SCREEN

FUCKING HELL

I HATE YOU

FUCK

I FUCKING HATE POKEMON

PIECE OF SHIT

HATE

HATE

HATE

HATE

yeah I got over it, I'm just gonna say 'fuck it we ball' and keep living life because I can't really get any better without doing shit worse.

I just hate pressure and people telling me what to do with myself.

Like, I am that type of stubborn person who would quit their productivity if some bitchass reminds them to do something or tells them to do something right before they do that same thing.

I fucking hate humans, man.

Gotta be real honest,

MFS LIKE THEM SHOULD STAY IN MY FUCKING BACKGROUND

I already barely remember people's birthdays, don't give me an reason to forget your entire existence for telling me to do my laundry WHILE I HAVE THE FUCKING BASKET OF CLOTHES IN MY HANDS

I'D FUCKING KILL YOU PEOPLE IF THAT SHIT WEREN'T ILLEGAL

FUCK

btw. don't kill people, that's stupid. also don't kill yourself

Now that I have your attention,

I wanna ask if something is wrong with me.

I'm really glad some of you lot recommend me going to therapy...

Unfortunately, I DON'T HAVE THE RESOURCES TO GET THAT SHIT

Also, I literally just said I barely know how to speak and share words in an appropriate amount in conversation.

Also also. I'd probably be sent to an asylum and be alienated for years.

Therapists can still judge you, they just don't show it. ...Probably.

They just piss me off tbh.

It's nice to air that shit out to a professional, but I doubt that's gonna be the first step to a full redemption where I finally start respecting my whole existence.

Now

Do you guys also get some fucked up Deja Vu sometimes?

Like, I don't want to alarm anyone, but I keep dreaming random fucking scenarios in my sleep and find that same shit happening bar for bar and word for word somewhere later in my life.

Like, I KEEP SEEING SHIT HAPPENIGN THAT GIVES ME UNSETTLING TINGLES

I DON'T LIKE TO THINK I CAN PREDICT THE FUTURE

I DON'T LIKE THIS

THIS IS WHY I DON'T LIKE BELIEVEING IN PREDESTINATION HIGHER BEING SHIT BECAUSE THIS IS PRIME RAGEBAIT

SHOULD I STICK TO THE SCRIPT WHEN THAT SHIT HAPPENS???

I DON'T

AND SOMEHOW THESE SCRIPTED FUCKING DREAMS COME TO LIFE AND I HAVE TO CONTEMPLATE HOW MANY CANON EVENTS WILL HAPPEN IF I JUST SIT THERE WITH MY EYES WIDE SPIRALING INSIDE THINKING ABOUT WHAT THE FUCK ANY OF THIS MEANS WHEN IT'S SO VIVIDLY FAMILIAR.