You know...

You know the feeling when you write a long letter or message with all your negative thoughts, and then you just wipe it off completely after completing it? This is what just happened.

I was concerned about my lack of sense of making bots, but after thinking about it, why should I even care?

I am just a guy who makes goon material for gooners like me, and worrying about my bots not getting as popular as I want or getting judged for them being too weird is just so dumb. Like why would I genuinely give a fuck?

Eventually, Janitor will die, and all my creations will die with it, so why worry about anything if everything is pointless? If everything is pointless, then I am able to do anything I want without a single worry because no matter what I do, the outcome will be the same.

I am here to have fucking fun and get horny, why the fuck should I worry about anything on this website? My life is not going to depend on it.

If I quit, I can be easily replaced by any other creator. Or if I don't create bots for some time, NOTHING will happen.

All those concerns about trying to be better as if I am in some kind of race - BULLSHIT!

Why should I worry about all those things when they do not actually matter? Like, this is just a random website.

Things that actually matter are all the positive emotions that I feel. All the cool people I meet. I enjoy all the funny interactions I get with people in reviews. One, two, or three of my bots didn't get as successful as I wanted them? Well, fuck them then, the only thing I wasted was time, and I have plenty of that. I didn't lose anything that was actually worth something, so why get upset?

Life is already fucking bullshit, why should I make it even worse for myself lol?

If you did read all that, then thanks for listening. See you in the next bot someday, probably tomorrow.