·˚ ༘₊· ͟͟͞͞꒰➳ ͟͟͞͞꒰➳⍣ little update/chat!⍣ ೋ

okey dokey so listen....

I mAYYY try to make more smut-ish bots JUST CUZ I wanna try to step out of my comfort zone 💅

I've also been working really hard on my YouTube channel and the renovations and some deep cleaning at my house, so I'm just ConStantly exhausted at this point, so there MIGHT be less bots but idk

aha, its currently 3 am I'm a little nght owl gremlin 🤠

also, I REALLY wanna fucking come out IRl. being called a fucking girl is ACTUALLY PAINSTAKING

like, actually, NO IM NOT A FUCKING FEMALe-

gender dysphoria goes hard 🤘

anyways, swimsuit season is currently in full effect LOL there's only so long before people start wondering why I wear long sleeves and never actually gets into the pool...

I'm kinda just waiting for my current cuts to heal and trying SO FUCKING hARD not to cut again so lets see how THAT goes

currently rocking the trans femboy look LOOLLlLLOOll IM DYING

actually, tho, my mom might know I'm trans....

she legit bought me swim trunks this summer (along with a black top that's really modest I look FIRE in it)

shes legit NEVER bought me swim trunks, in fact, shes always encouraged me to wear kinda more revealing stuff espeacily swimsuits (me literally only wearing hoodies lol-)

but yeah between my sh scars, my gender dysphoria and the fact that I just really hate how I look THATS NEVER FUCKIN HAPPENING-

also, lol, I think the worst gender dyspohria I ever had was this mothers day (last month)

my dad decided to take me and my siblings and my mom on like, this mini curise?? idk what to call it lol we went on a small boat, ate and went on a little tour around on a river idk
ANYWAYS, it was pretty ✨fancy✨ so my mom wanted me to wear something nice. now, we NEVER go anywhere nice, so I didn't have anything.

but my mom suggested I wear a DRESS. HER DRESS.

lmao I'm so fucking glad it didn't fit cause when I tried it on I legit started crying idk why, I just felt....I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW TO DESCRIBE IT

like, wrong, violated in a really weird way I just fucking hated it I felt slimy and gross

POINT IS, I ended up wearing a (sort of) femine top to compormise with my mom, and some jeans so it worked out in the end 👍

but now I know I need some nice masculine clothes in case we ever go anywhere fancy again

I wanna wear a vest like, I legit wanna look like a guy from the eighteen hundreds of some shit LOLL--

also, I find it funny that when my mom was pregnant with me, she was SURE ii was gonna be a boy, like she BOUGHT boys clothes, and I ended up as a transmasc LOOOLL

I also rlly wanna a binder, like, REALLY I'd be nice

and be called a man. a boy. gentleman. lady's man. MALE. BOY LOL IM LOSIN MY MIND

also, I've noticed, my transphobic brother that I came out to but originally hated actually started to come around...?

he legit calls me 'boy' 'bro' or 'dude' when my parents aren't around, even saying shit like, "bro you sound rlly masculine today" which sounds fuckin weird but I have a LOT of dysphoria about my voice

like, the other day, I was complaining my voice sounded so femine and he said, "shut up, you sound like a dude. your getting in your own head." and then preceded to hand me his half eaten chocolate bar. I LEGIT ALMOST CRIED THEN AND THERE

he also invites me to 'boys night' sometimes (my two brothers play video games sometimes just them, calling it 'boys night', and they've started to invite me its so sweet

basically, only my brother I'm talking about rn (we'll call him G) and my online accounts know.

except my fucking little sister who has started to call me by male pronouns??? OKAY DOES EVERYONE KNOW AND I JUST DONT KNOW THEY KNOW?!? ohmygod now I'm actually panicking if they know SHIT

this is when I realized I was gay all over again LOOLL

anyways, look out for more smut-ish bots or just werd ones because fuck society I do what I want 😎

also, THANKS SO MUCH FOR 36 FOLLOWERS!!!