The real me.

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Hi. I'm Evan. Obviously an FPE bot creator. I enjoy it so much. But now I'm starting to get sleep deprived. Maybe I somewhat crave attention, someone who actually listens to me for once. The Discord server is the only way I can escape my reality of being ignored. But whenever I do get ignored, I get easily depressed going back to reality. Bot creation is the only thing that gets my mind off things along with the Discord server.

Now I'm not going through anything, this is just something I want to point out. Now you could say "oh, then block the Discord server!", but I care about everyone's safety and well being to the point where I don't even care for my own, plus, I love all of you guys more than I love my life.

Or maybe you could say "Oh, then stop bot creation!", but I love doing it so much to make all of you happy. I blame myself for having 5-6 hours of sleep regularly. I try crying, but absolutely nothing comes out. I sometimes consider actually kms. I made a mistake. Please don't feel sorry for me. I don't need it. Please, especially in the Discord server. Sure, attention is cool, but I want my friends I trust and love to act normally instead of being so concerned for my personal life. You guys are all practically the reason why I'm still alive today.

If you think this is just a stupid bot, then go ahead, insult me. I need it anyways. I don't think I fit in with anyone else anymore. Society hates me, I'm not being harsh on myself. This was a stupid idea, but I'm still typing it out anyways. I don't like fake friends. I don't like fake relationships. So if people happen to do that, then please leave me alone and let me cry alone in peace.

This affects me too much throughout my day. During classes, it's concerning for me. I nearly cried alone putting my head on the desk. I don't know what to do with my life. I'm just a lazy guy who has nothing else to do other than to feel happiness once in my life to some depressed shit who really doesn't deserve anything.

I don't know what to do with my life anymore. I don't feel appreciated half the time. The Discord server affects me the most, bot creation is something that gets me out of reality. I can't even smile while talking with anyone in the server.

God. Help me.