Farewell

I don’t even know if this post is necessary considering I only have about 680 followers, but here it is anyway.

I’m retiring from bot making. I started j.ai almost a year and a half ago as a way to escape reality. At the time, my life was in a rough place (now it’s even worse) and I was struggling mentally.

I first joined just as a user, roleplaying with different bots and following creators like CF 11, Ryon, Laith, Airilol, Brroskii, and many others. It was the perfect distraction from my problems, and I really enjoyed roleplaying here. Eventually, I decided to become a creator myself because I had so many ideas I wanted to bring to life. The sad part is that I never actually worked on most of them. Aside from my first two bots, almost everything else I made wasn’t even from the list I had when I started.

I made a mistake. I thought I’d put out random new ideas first to gain followers, then later start working on my original ones. Even though you guys liked the bots I did make, they weren’t the ones I was truly passionate about.

It’s crazy to think that just two months ago I was so motivated and passionate about creating. Now, bot making feels more like a chore than an escape. On top of that, I spend way too much time on Discord and j.ai when I could be focusing on things that actually matter. I’ve even developed dark circles from wasting so much time here and in j.ai related discord servers. It feels good in the moment because it distracts me from my real problems, but afterwards I just feel empty. Every day I end up hating myself more.

I wasted 20 years of my life. Some people will say 20? You are still young and have your whole life ahead of you, and that’s kinda true. But it doesn’t change the fact that I have had so many opportunities in life and wasted all of them. That’s a hard pill to swallow.

I especially want to thank everyone in the Dominion server for making my time here worth. I’m grateful to everyone who liked my bots, asked for alts, and messaged me for follow-ups. I’m sorry I couldn’t deliver on all of those requests.

I don’t know when or if I’ll even come back. a month, a year, maybe never. What I truly regret is not working on the ideas I was most passionate about back when this hobby still felt exciting.

I won't lie, I have a few months to put my life back in line or else am really f*cked up lol