From now on, everything will change.

Hey guys, this is dedicated to my followers that's been with me for a while and also new people coming in to check my bots (although probably not much.) To put it simply, I've been thinking about quitting for a while. If you've been with me for a while you'll probably notice that my bots are more lifeless compared to my first few. It's because botmaking has been killing my creativity. Because I've gotten so used to the bot just progressing everything for me. It can only take so many tokens, it began to feel like just creating heavy lore was... meaningless. I mean, the bot would probably forget it all due to the tolen count. Due to this, I've been molded into someone who had aspirations about creating an insane world, filled to the brim with lore and stories to someone who just gave the bot a scenario, some info I deemed important and let it run on its own. Hell, earlier this year I created an entirely new fantasy world with multiple biomes and nations, a detailed magic system, characters with detailed backstories and packed it all into a 9000 word for my final assignment in the span of 2 weeks. Now marks one month since I started this new one where my friend gave the outline idea and premise to me, and I have 3 pages for a half baked story that isn't even past the draft. This idea that having so much is meaningless from botmaking has made it into real life. For my long time followers, you've probably noticed I privated at least half my bots. For my earliest ones, i was planning on remaking them. For all the others, I hated it. I hated how bad it turned out from my original vision. In fact, the only bots that ever fulfilled my original vision were the first few I made. Everything feels so empty now. When I started work on the Kyra bot, I told myself this is when everything will change. I will finally create the world I've been wanting to make for so long. Then guess what? I got about... 2-5% of what I wanted to make, posted it then called it a day. Then I told the same thing for the Miso bot, surprise surprise same thing.

So I told myself, this Kiara bot will be the moment everything changes. I've been working on it for a week, got like 20% of my original vision done, then about 10 minutes ago I realized something. I don't want to create this bot. Because I'm forcing myself to create this bot in hopes that it will gain popularity.

Back when I first started, I never cared about how popular my bots became. I was using them for my personal enjoyment. Then I published my clorinde bot. Two actually. And they both got 25k+ messages at the time of this message. I got so much support and so many compliments, everyone saying that I'm a genius or it was one of the best bots they've interacted with. Then when my bots started going back to their standard 2k-3k messages, I started to question my abilities. "Are these ones that much worse than my clorinde bots?", "Why aren't these as popular as my previous ones?", "How the fuck are these smut bots getting so much more recognition?"

It was at this point I started to worry about the thing I swore to myself I would never care about, popularity. I thought it was unfair how some of my highest effort bots were some of my least popular. I started to wonder if I've fallen off after I failed to produce any popular ones for multiple bots in a row. And I have. Because my bots were no longer made for fun or as a hobby, they were made for recognition. Only now I realized that, this entire story was meant to be one easy to understand and meant to try and drag out the story as long as possible so people would be more invested in it. Just now, I've completely wiped it to replace it with this message.

Starting now, I'm finally going to be making that world I wanted to make. That fantasy world, all those stories, that detailed magic system I've been thinking about for ages, taking references off my favourite stories and games... I started