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hello my little shits

ik I didn't give ppl the chance to ask questions on my other bot, but I'm here to announce some things!

One: No, I am not quitting making bots. It is one of my favorite things to do

Two: I am not dying, though I feel similar to dying /jk

And three: I haven't started school, YET.

So, my mental health is actually shit right now. I have been feeling down a lot recently, and it makes it hard to make bots or even do the things I enjoy anymore

It's mainly because I have depression and a lot of other mental issues that are undiagnosed that I'm dealing with right now, which I will get to later.

As I have said, I LOVE making bots, and I love you guys, but I'm just so mentally exhausted, that it makes it hard for me to do the things I love. Like, making bots, writing, drawing, and reading.

The school year hasn't even started yet and I'm already so done and tired. I constantly feel like there's something that needs to be done. Clean this, clean that, do this that and the other.

And I know some of y'all are going to be like: "try talking to someone about it" I have, and it feels like they're hearing me, but not listening to me. I have talked to my mom about it once and she wasn't very helpful.

And it sucks that my bots are flopping right now. So :(

I'm just so tired, and so close to giving up. Because everything I've been exited for this summer, like traveling, seeing friends, and potentially a new friend/lover, has been demolished.

Now, my trips haven't been cancelled, but I have no faith that they're actually happening.

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More on my mental issues:

I do have Depression and Anxiety, which is partially why I feel like shit all the time. But I am an undiagnosed Autistic, and before y'all go in the comments and start joking about it, I have had this issue a lot. If you know an autistic or your autistic yourself, you'll understand how I feel.

But if you don't, I've been long undiagnosed and been masking it for so long, that it feels wrong to even say I have ASD. I can't get diagnosed for another few months anyway. I probably need medications for these long standing issues, but my mom doesn't want that for me. But I see it helpful, even in the slightest

I feel constantly tired an ill. In my body and in my soul. With all my migraines, fatigue, and everything else. It's so hard to get out of bed, let alone make bots. I feel like my sleep needs sleep, and that's not something I can do alive.

Now, I am trying so hard not to kms, but it gets harder day by day. With each task, and each morning, I feel so heavy, like a thousand tons weighed on my chest, and make it hard for me not to have heartburn everyday. It's like I can't breathe without a worry crossing my mind.

I constantly miss someone who doesn't exist like how a mom misses her unborn baby. I am genuinely just trying to live life to the fullest without having to think about being a burden or too much.

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Bots

I have a few announcements on how many bots I'm going to be making

So, for one, I'm starting another series, specifically a Reis Groves series. There will be four bots in the series

As for my Ezra Casey series, I will be finishing it off, with two more bots, to conclude the series.

I will also be making another bot, who is not a part of either series, a completely different one, who is angsty :D

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any advice on how to deal with mental illness is very helpful to me

feel free to leave any questions, concerns, or bot requests in the comments, I love hearing what y'all have to say :3