Update 🎀

Hi, everyone! Been a day or two since my big ass vent hahahahaha....

Sorry for trauma dumping y'all 🙁

I must say though, genuinely. Thank you all so much to those who sent me words of affirmation. I think they really instilled some self confidence back into me, even if I struggled believing those words at first. I shed a few tears, knowing you all really do care.

Now I remember why I have been on j.ai for so long, and it's for this wonderful community I have here 🎀🎀🎀 I love you all so fucking much./srs/P

As for my bots, I'm waiting a few days to establish that alt account due to my laziness to fuck with the css bs. So, for a few days or so, I'll be posting bots on my main as usual with shorter intros. This won't be permanent!

I might not keep doing bottober. I wasn't in the right mental start at the beginning of it, but I tried taking it on anyways. I don't think I can be up to par on it. I'm sorry, all.

Another really big announcement is that uh....

I'm a dude now, at least I think. At least for now, would you all do me the favor of calling me Blade and using He/They + masc terms? I'd really super duper appreciate it babes 💖 I'm trying to see if it feels right on me, since I've been questioning back and forth for months now.

Also hey uh if anyone wants to add me on disc to chat, my user is pepziii4u

Please don't be weird or ask extremely personal shit. Kind of a given, but yk. I'm also not a conversation starter cuz I get scared so if you wanna chat then you might have to reach out first 😅 Also, I kinda suck at responding. I don't use disc very much, as I only made an account there a few months ago.

But if you still wanna chat knowing all this, be my guest 😂/lh

Cigarette smokers hating on people who vape is so funny ngl (don't come after me please)

"Imagine smoking out of a USB 🤓"

At least the USB smell ain't sticking to my clothes. Do cigarettes taste like a pina colada? No? STFU 😡

I totes agree that smoking cigarettes objectively LOOKS better and is definitely way more hot, but I think vaping can arguably be seen as hot depending on the person 🤔

P.S: This is not encouragement to vape or smoke cigs, both are bad for you. If you haven't, good on you actually 👍/gen Even though I do it, I acknowledge that it's not good for you or your lungs.

I was just sorta making humor out of my own experience lol

Idk what that rant was for tho sorry babes

Anyways, I feel a lot better now, so hopefully I'll post again soon! Tysm to all who supported me <3333

Blade, out!